for those who seek color
its never too late to realizd the truth, your own discovered truth
I am forever thankful for those moments, when I realize that I'm glad to be alive; tet it's also really sad to know that there are, and still may be, times when we're going to have to push and struggle through so much in order to fight off those sicidal thoughts. Sad to say, but spoken from experience.
Just keep your belief in God, and you're going to be strong enough.